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I wrote this for [livejournal.com profile] hp_het_taboo:

Two Can Keep a Secret (NC-17, Fred/Ginny, canon-compliant Harry/Ginny) [AO3]
Ten years after Fred's death, Ginny looks back on the secret they shared.

I want to emphasize here that that this is a story about abuse, and not a fun incest romp. Romps are good too (I've certainly written my share), I just don't want anybody to skim the headers and think this is one.

I can't imagine it will come as a big surprise to anyone who read the fic that I'm a sexual abuse survivor. Over the past couple of years I've done some pretty intensive recovery work, and it's nice to be able to say that I no longer meet the diagnostic criteria for PTSD. (Hurray!)

When you have something like this in your life I don't think there's ever a time when it's "all better", but I am really happy with the level of closure and acceptance I've gotten to. It feels very freeing to be able to draw from my experiences for the purposes of writing a (hopefully) effective piece of fiction, and to be on a completely even keel about it.

So when you have the option to write freely about the topic and let it have the complexity that it actually has because there's nothing stopping you anymore, then you ask yourself, what do I want the story to be? What do I want people to feel? [personal profile] hannelore was extremely helpful in bringing that into focus, and I ended up feeling good about the direction I took it.

It'll never be something everyone wants to read, and that's fine. I have to write the stuff that's me, and this is one of those things.


Anyway, this is shaping up to be a busy end to 2014. I've got a [insanejournal.com profile] daily_deviant fic to write for October and [livejournal.com profile] hp_halloween due on the same day, Kinky Kristmas due in November, [livejournal.com profile] severus_fest in December... so, yeah, probably not signing up for Yuletide this year. Treating is more fun anyway, IMO!

This entry was originally posted at http://pauraque.dreamwidth.org/46520.html. Comment here or there.

Date: 2014-10-14 07:43 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_hannelore/
I have to write the stuff that's me, and this is one of those things.

Date: 2014-10-15 01:22 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] pauraque

Date: 2014-10-15 01:57 pm (UTC)
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The story isn't one I'm going to be able to read, but ♥ to you, and I'm very glad to hear that you're happy with the place you're currently in :) Yay you!

Date: 2014-10-15 02:08 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] pauraque
That's totally fine! It's so important to know one's own boundaries. And thank you. :)

Date: 2014-10-15 02:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thimble-kiss.livejournal.com
I'm so glad you've been able to get some closure and distance to your experiences of abuse, and that you managed to write a story drawing on those experiences that you feel good and right about. ♥ It's one of those fics that make me feel very inadequate as I grasp for words to say just how good it is.

(I've not had a chance to say before, but thank you so much for your card! Mr Roz and I truly appreciated that.)

Date: 2014-10-16 07:14 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] pauraque
Thanks again. Just knowing the story was read and understood is more than adequate. Though of course before I posted it I had to consider and make peace with the possibility that not everyone would "get it" the way I intended, it does feel validating that people do get it!

I'm glad the card made it. We weren't sure whether cards like that are ordinarily given in your country (some things are oddly difficult to google for), but hoped it would be all right either way. *hugs*

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