Oh, Eo, I am so, so sorry. I just booted up and decided to check my flist and found... this. I know from experience that nothing rings as hollow at a time like this as 'if there's anything I can do...' because there is nothing anyone can do (especially toward the one thing your spirit is absolutely aching for, which is to have her back.) But the offer remains, anyway; the worst part of grief is often the feeling of being so terribly alone, and in spirit we're there with you, a staunch and ready circle around your heart.

Don't forget to focus on the good things you and your mom shared; one of the greatest helps I've had in a situation like this came from a cousin who called me less than an hour after my dad had died. Her first words were, "What an amazing life!" and they really made my mindset do an about-face to focus on the wonderful things, small and large, that my dad had done over so many years rather than dwelling on the single minute that took him from us.

Thanks, too, for the posts where you've told us about your mom, or shared her thoughts, helping bring her alive for those of us on Lj.