pauraque_bk | jolly holiday

Did I talk about this already? Next week I'm leaving on vacation and won't be back until mid-July. We (

hannelore junior and I) are going to be visiting San Francisco, where I grew up but haven't been back to since I moved to the east coast four years ago.

I'm looking forward to it, though it is going to involve briefly seeing my dad before he leaves on his vacation to Africa. We're house-sitting for him, that's how we're able to afford to go. It's very possible that even in a short time he will manage to say something horribly offensive to one of us, but shortly thereafter he'll be on another continent. (There have been many times in my life when my dad said something that made me fervently wish he were on another continent, and this time it'll really happen!)

I don't usually have a hard time with travel, but it's been a while, and I think the running-around prep is getting to me. Today I completely blanked on an appointment, which is very unlike me, and is a clear sign that things aren't operating at full capacity.

Then there's

staranise's post on giftedness that I just read, which puts a name to a lot of things I've been aware of all my life and have always tried to stuff away. I was labeled "gifted" as a child, but the way the adults around me reacted to that was very fucked up and made things much harder for me than they had to be. This is something I usually just don't talk about, because it's hard to know how to talk about it without coming off like "poor me, I'm such a special snowflake that nobody understands my brilliance", which is not it at all. Read

staranise's post, I think she explains it well.

So I need to hash all this out, and I don't actually have time to do it right now, and that is frustrating.

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